on dreams

I went on a funeral yesterday and then I dreamt that my father died.



2 days later



I have been having really stupid dreams...dreams about things so distant and things that I don't think about normally. then of course there are dreams of my fucked up life. I celebrated my Birthday by doing nothing......I had to take a gift from N@% .... so you can imagine.

I need to wait here till December at least.... I can't leave before that.....but in the meanwhile I can make plans....

"In your head...they are still fighting....they are dying...." I will kill them all... and then may be I will be happy...