foolball, smoking, break up etc....

We have a football match today!! I am all set....we have to wear red T-shirts....thats bloody!!

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I am trying to quit smoking, but the ciggy pack in the dashboard is seducing me...I feel like giving in....It's just one ciggy....


I have started taking ayurvedic capsules.....


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I have to take a Road Trip...probably just me and a few friends...from here to Kanyakumari or Ladakh....

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Amit broke up with Itee....(or may be she broke up with him) isn't that great!!

Today I got an email from Pankaj, he also had a break up....Amazing!! I think it's the break up season....

on dreams

I went on a funeral yesterday and then I dreamt that my father died.



2 days later



I have been having really stupid dreams...dreams about things so distant and things that I don't think about normally. then of course there are dreams of my fucked up life. I celebrated my Birthday by doing nothing......I had to take a gift from N@% .... so you can imagine.

I need to wait here till December at least.... I can't leave before that.....but in the meanwhile I can make plans....

"In your head...they are still fighting....they are dying...." I will kill them all... and then may be I will be happy...

Madman: Sarita Vihar crossing

Everyone has a sense of space or home. Now, even a madman has that.....It's weird that for past one week I have noticed this one madman on the same road every time I am driving to work.

May be they define their area in their own way. Today I remember the lines (gibberish) from Manto's Toba Tek Singh

"Upri gur gur di annexe di be-dhiyan o mung di daal of di lalteen."

Just the fact that a madman draws boundaries around him in his own way is remarkable and tells you why we need a home. why a human heart/brain yearns for that space.

When I was thrown out of house at the age of 12....first thing I did was create my own space in the park.



(After about two weeks)


Remember the madman of Sarita Vihar-I did not see him for a few days......I though he is dead.....may be he was out for a vacation.....this could be a nice song:

Madman on a vacation
I missed his sight on the street....

I will complete this song one day.
but he came back today....